he said it's more than interest in kkg, it's an obsession. >> but why?have begun in college, 40 years ago. >> it goes back to him being rejected for a date by a woman at the university of cincinnati. he couldn't get over it. he attributed her rejection of him to her membership in that sorority. >> to investigators, it now makes sense. the prince ton, new jersey mailbox, a few doors down from the kkg office. >> his obsession helps in my mind explain how the mailbox that was used was chosen. >> meeting for coffee with an acquaintance wired with the fbi, ivans denies being the anthrax killer. >> i have no clue how to make a bioweapon and i don't want to know. >> but at the same time, he admits to memory loss, ivans is falling apart, abusing prescription drugs and alcohol. >> 911, what's the nature of your emergency. >> march 19, 2008. ivans' wife calls paramedics when he collapses at home. >> so you're not sure how long he's been like that. >> i know he was on-line 45 minutes ago with a friend. >> okay. do you know what he said in that conversation? >> it w