janice, kordell, you wanted to do this for many years. >> inmates like kordell boyd are given the opportunityto meet face to face with the families of their victims. >> i sent a letter to one of the victims of the family. and one of the daughters received it. so they came down here. and we mad a mediation. i talked to her, she talked to me. >> so many times that what you say, and if i cry it's okay. but i have relived this a billion times. whether i like it or not you've been a part of my life for 15 years. >> at the beginning i didn't feel i was privileged to even talk to people. i killed their family members? come on. but god stored something in my heart. and i felt like i have to. and just to show that i'm a human being and i didn't intend to kill no one. >> was mother trying -- >> she was praying. she said something that's scripture. she says, they know not -- forgive them, they know not what they do. >> did they ever try to tell you you were going to ruin your life and gave you money? >> no. your father offered me a job. >> it hurts until you let it out. >> why did you decide to kill the