i didn't do what was going to koresh or fail. but if it falls apart.[inaudible] at the difficult part of watching people end up not being able to help but knowing i would have to use my journalistic souls the chapters that warmed my heart or our heart breaking. that was one of my favorite chapters. the chapter about first deciding okay we are going to try to pass the troops here just read the whole thing. i love every chapter. [laughter] >> do you want to ask me a question? >> i guess what was the most difficult part to read about yourself or others? >> i think the hardest part for me is reading the decisions i've made and although they are not all perfect, i don't regret any of them. it is the happy ending [inaudible] don't give it away. you know what's interesting about that is a. you would think it's no longer a shoulder so that's no surprise in the book. i thought it would end up with when you all finally found a home, like you found a home and then more things kept happening. i think the events that occur were just as important because it it shows