we used to go to lady elliston on friday nights got a babysitter for kimberly and he started hanging out with a lot of different people and started drinking heavily. and the bar was right next door which is not the greatest thing didn't think anything of it when we moved to the house. but it happened and. i remember vodka bottles being under the bed hid in you know so and then they would argue constantly so. i just remember my childhood not a wonderful. you know i think that he hurt his back at work and he got addicted to pain medication and then cocaine and then alcohol and he just spiraled downhill. always enter my conscience i always wonder if he is he ok what is he doing is he living on the streets he do no good and when i was younger i would always wonder if that was him. you know i'd always want to give money to those people because i felt like that was my dad. like i hope which people don't hope that he was either in the hospital or in jail where i would get that one moment that he was sober and i never got it and the fact that he was in a hospital and nobody contacted any fam