and my father took my younger sister and i, and we drove out to lake geneva to visit with this priest, william effinger. at one point in the day, father effinger said he needed help in the church with candles. and my father said, "go help him." and we went into the church, where he assaulted me for a period of time, and ultimately ended up raping me. while he was raping me, i didn't understand what was happening. i just knew there was this incredible pain and i could hardly breathe, and i kept praying that god would just let me die. and when he finished, he stood up and he looked at me and he said, "if you tell anybody what you did, they won't believe you. and if you tell anybody, your parents will burn in hell." and then he gave me penance to do, and he turned and looked at me, and he smoothed his hair back with both of his hands and he walked down the aisle of the church, and i remember hearing the door close. and i just sat there because i didn't know what i should do, and eventually i realized that there was blood on my legs and there was blood on the new purple shorts that my gra