additional funding f this episode was provided by i lambda charitable trust. ♪ ♪ recently, i decided, a man that i hadn't seen in 30 years. i remember the last time that i ever spoke to my da d. i was eight years ol d. i don't remember what it was . maybe he didn't come for a visi t, or he missed my birthday or didn't get me a present . i don't quite remember but i do remember feeling angr y. i remember feeling hur t. and my mom encouraged me to tell him how i felt . now my mom ner badmouthed my da d. she never said he was a bad guy or he was a bad father . and i think even at that young age i knew what she want ed and i think i knew what was expecte d. so when my mom encouraged me to tell him how i felt i remember calling him up on the phon e, my mom was next to me on the couch and i blamed him for this thing, or that thin g, and i don't even remembe r. but i remember the last thin g i ever said to my dad on the phone . and i yelled into the phon e, "i don't ever want to see you ain !" and i didn't for 30 year s. when i finally did decide to reach out to my dad i went on facebook .