confessed she laughgh at. >> the only midwestern that ben affleck hasn't been unfaithful to. matt damon. >> she said the love of my life and what am i going to do about that. >> jen won't be taking ben back, it's heart breaking as she calls him the most brilliant person in any room, the most charismatic, she says when his sun shines on you you feel, but when his sun shines elsewhere, it's colder, you can feel a shadow. >> she just kind of said, know, in my part of the world, we just say bless his heart was it a phoenix rising outashes? she'slike i am out of the ashes. >> she also reveals her 10-year-old daughter violet has helped her through all of this, she says they have even become >>> did you see kelly clarkson break down in tears onn "ame idol." she talks about the song about her painful childhood. >> i think all the contestants could feel the weight of what was happening. to restore my faith >> we all had tearsrsn our eyes, it was so captivating, she barely got through it. and the father should be straight >> and very pregnant kelly clarkson sang "piece by piece" that's