. >> can you imagine like if lee harvey oswald had had the chance to spill his guts or john wilkes booth? i knew i had one of the most saddest and horrible stories that has ever been told in american journalism. >> i never had trouble admitting to who -- my involvement in what i did because i feel no shame for it. you see, with these tapes i feel very free in talking. you've got this adrenaline pumping but you force yourself to stay calm. i then pulled up to the light, which was red at the time and lit the main fuse, which was approximately two minutes. you can see the ridiculous nature of somebody calling me a coward with a 7,000 pound bomb. i lit the two-minute fuse at the stop light answered swear to god that was the longest stop light i ever set at at my life. i'm thinking, okay, it's lit. green, green! i'm at what, 1:30? i pulled up to the building, pulled the parking brake, turned it off and then i made sure my door was locked, stepped out and walked across the street. mission was accomplished. i knew it was accomplished. and it was over. >> without warning, all of a sudden, you he