at take—off here from leeming, we call a bombing raid over germany and you'd let the bombs go from theeople being killed. and i used to think about it. you knew it was happening, but you tried to forget it — that you were bombing civilians. it's a funny feeling, you know, to be involved in war, and to be killing people, and knowing you're killing people, and also thinking — not knowing, but thinking that there was a reason and a right in doing it. but since then, i've realised that there wasn't a right, and there never will be a right for people to fight each other. never ever. and they're things you can't forget, you can't change... they're just there. and you are stuck in memories. the flight engineer's position was inside the stilling, out of sight almost. and you couldn't see out, and i was objecting to this in my letters home. still got all my letters, my mother kept all my letters, they are still there. and i was complaining about the fact that that i may not be able to see anything, like a young lad, as i was. our very first mission was to a place called salbris in the middle of