well that's how leslie gay feels everyday. the world of glitz and glamour, leslie feels like an outsider. i'm on the red carpet for an event and i'm enjoying myself, but i'm huge. huge and she's convinced her weight is keeping her back from certain jobs. i haven't been able to get because they want somebody with a specific look i don't want my weight to be not like, a small little chip that i'm just carrying around. i want to get rid of it; i don't want it to be my anchor anymore. her desire to lose weight is actually a matter of life and death. my doctor told me hey if you don't lose this weight you definitely going to get it in the next couple of years. i was pre-diabetic, it runs in my family. i look at my mom and she has to take insulin and what she told me is leslie you don't want something that's going to control your life. it's a preventable disease and i wantt to prevent it. she knows now is the time to change. i have a dog that i walk now; she gets walked at least 3 or 4 times a day. why do i make sure my dog gets the