you name your children as claudius and linus. are those the real names? jennifer: no. brian: why are you worried about the real names? jennifer: when i first traveled, especially from the white part, i did not know what would happen. in germany we have a problem with neo-nazis. i just, you know, i did not want to take any risk. brian: you tell us several times in the book that you had a nervous breakdown, or depression. i hate these questions, but what does it feel like to have depression? can you describe it? jennifer: i will try to. i turn the question back, did you, yourself, ever feel like you have a bad day? yes, probably. brian: no, every day is perfect. [laughter] i know what you are saying. jennifer: you feel like there is something wrong, but depression is not a day or a week. it can last a month. i described it once with a cloud. the cloud comes, and it will not disappear. it is a dark cloud. somehow you are not able to function, you are not able to get up. in my case, i wanted to sleep so badly but depression can also have very different symptoms. depression