for inmates like lorania diaz, a life in prison is all they know. >> i'm scared to get out, you know. i'm scared because i don't know what i'm going to do, and i know how different i am now. and it's just, it's a weird experience. >> i don't feel like i'm a good person because the things i've done. they want you to be that good girl. they'll let you loose and let you become part of society again. part of me doesn't ever want to be part of society again. >> i think some of them actually like it here, and they get their families, you know, they create their families here, their friends. it's like a reunion. it's nothing new to them, and it's their comfort zone. >> it's traumatizing, just to look 19 years down the road, i'll be eligible for parole, i'll be too old. i won't be able to collect ssi. any vocation i take now won't be any good by the time i'm old enough to parole from here. technology changes every day. i have no idea what half the cars look like out there, let alone a computer. so it's going to be scary. >> on our return to valley state, we found life remains very much as it