for inmates like lorena diaz, a life in prison is all they know. >> i'm scared to get out, you know? i'm going to do and i know how different i am now. and it's just -- it's a weird experience. >> i want to be the good girl, become part of society again. part of me doesn't want to be. part of society. >> i think some of them like it here. and they get their families, they create their families here, their friends, it's like a reunion, nothing new to them it's their comfort zone. >> it's traumatizing, just to look 19 years down the road i will be eligible for parole, won't be able to collect ssi or any vocation i take now won't be any goodbye the time i'm old enough to parole from here, technology changes every day. i have no idea what half the cars look like let alone a computer. it will be scary. on our trourn return to valley state it was much like the first visit five years earlier. while tll may be new programs, fundamental issues like drug