lori nathan, who is a war mediator.the end of season four when saul berenson was captured by a terrorist, played by an actor who is a beautiful human being, but at the end of it, saul berenson was going to be traded, as it happened here, for four or five known terrorists who would go out and do more harm. he would rather take his own life. kill me before you let someone else go out there and heard someone else. -- hurt someone else. he had certainly suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder. i woke up, just as we finished shooting and i wrote this one and a half page feeling that saul had about where he was it at. was very dark. very angry. very revengeful. the polar opposite of what i had been saying. he wanted to annihilate all of these people who have been doing harm, but also including people like dick cheney, donald rumsfeld, not just known terrorists, but people who don't do good. and i read it to lori nathan at dinner. i said to him, i just met him. my wife took me to this dinner. i didn't want to go. i was re