for some people finding your element is like lovatt first site. sometimes, it was this way for me, it's more like you release after a long time, that you are in love with something. you release this old friend you have, you are feeling differently about them. it was like that for me, it was not an instant thing, but over things. >> when it comms to your career some of the best advice i got was don't worry about journals and not paying, do what you are passionate about, and the money and everything will follow, is that the similarity. >> it's sometimes true. i'm not offering a poliana view of the world. some people can't make a living from what they want to do. there's a massive movement for amateur activity at the moment. and sometimes it is misconsouth-east because people think amateur means unprofessional, not as good as professional. the literal meaning of amateur from the latin is doing something for the love of it. there are amateur actors doing it for the love of it. they are not hams, they are good actors. they don't want the uncertainty. s