i still have nightmares about joe lundowski molesting... having sex with me. i get up sweating, angry, feel like i could hurt somebody. i never meaned to get angry at my children, but the anger went on my children, also. >> i know it's hard, packy, and i'm sorry that all of that has happened to you and your kids. >> i keep asking for help. nobody's been listening to me for a long time. >> go ahead, tommy. >> ( sobbing ) >> it wasn't your fault. it wasn't your fault. >> it's almost like a universal pain, and it runs very deep. if jesus were to come to the village, i have no doubt in my mind that he would be crying. he would cry. you know, it's hard to see your own people hurting so much when you know that there's so much strength and beauty. >> the only way that this thing is going to go away is people starting to forgive each other and forgive the catholic church. >> trahant: for almost eight years, the survivors in st. michael have been waiting for an apology from bishop donald kettler and the church. >> as bishop, i express profound sadness... >> trahant: no