there was a story about lupus or something? do you have lupus?u know, lupus is in my family, and it is genetic. it's funny because my mother told me the other day that my fans were quite worried about me because they did talk about the fact that i was tested for lupus. and the truth is i don't show any signs, any symptoms of lupus. but i have tested borderline positive for the disease. so as of right now i do not have it. but i have to take good care of myself. >> larry: sure, you have to be very precautionary. death, though, is a theme in a number of your performances. you're only 24. you have been eaten by a giant angler fish onstage, crushed by a falling chandelier during a 2009 mtv music show. do you think about dying? >> yes, i do. >> larry: at age 24? >> it's something i -- well, i dream about it a lot. i don't know. i suppose i could lie to you and not tell you the truth, but the truth is i do think about it. the angler fish in the show was actually my childhood monster. my big fear was of the angler fish. so it was kind of comical to use