mark avery said, "they're killing people, don't go back out."went back, and it was one of the most difficult decisions i have ever had to make in my life. it was a big story but i was too sick and too injured. i am looking at all this footage in my hotel room and thinking, something is not right. i'm getting room service will this is going on down the street. the next day i came back to the office and when i walked in, there was a message for me from new york. it said, "we don't want anyone to make any unnecessary risks but if someone could photograph the square, we would appreciate it." i was scared to death. i did want to go through the incident with the rock again. i was concerned about getting into the beijing hotel. people were being stunned by cattle prods by the secret police. i had to figure out a way to get in and i had my cameras inside my jacket. i walked up the door and the security guard on the left -- there was this young american kid, kurt. i said, hey, where have you been? he said, can you get me into your room? a bunch of touris

mark avery, the photo editor then, said, they are killing people. don't go back out.was crying because one of his friends had been killed. was one of, and it the most difficult decisions i've ever had to make in my life. as a journalist, you have a very big story, but i was too scared, too sick, and two injured. i remember being back in the hotel, and i ordered room service. i'm looking at all of this footage and fire and everything on cnn. i'm thinking, something isn't right. i'm sitting having room service while this is going on down the street. the next day, i came back to the office, and when i walked in, there was a message from ap in new york. it said, we don't want anyone to make any unnecessary risks, but if somebody could please photograph the occupied tiananmen square, we would appreciate it. i drew the short end of the straw the night i had to go out when i got injured, and again, i got the short end of the stick to go back to the beijing hotel. i was scared to death. i knew what i went through, and i didn't want to go through it again. but i realized i had

they ran my images and then i went back to the hotel, because mark avery, who was the photo editor then, said they're killing people. don't go back out. and he was crying because one of his friends had been cicialgd chinese friend. i went back and it was one of the most difficult decision i have made of my life. as a journalist you have a very big story. but i was too scared, too sick, and too injured. i remember being back in the hotel, i ordered room service, and looking at all this footage and fire on cnn. i thought something is not right here. i'm sitting here having room service while all of this is going on in the street. the next day i cam back to the office and when i walkedded in there was a message from a.p. in new york. and it said we don't want anyone to make any unnecessary risk but if somebody could photograph the occupy tianamen square we'd appreciate it. i got the short end of the straw on the night i went out and was injured and i was scared to death and knew what i went through and didn't want to go through it again. i realized i had to do it. i was concerned about get