of it because, of course, i mean, in some way in the book she's portrayed a little bit like marlene dietrich, this mysterious woman who won't talk to anyone, who won't see anyone. and in some ways your story is about finding her, meeting her and also trying to capture who she is. so is it a long process of being in touch with her? >> it was almost like to courtship, honestly. i tried to -- first, i tried to really impress her and seem very businesslike and smart, but she just put me in my place immediately, you know? because i was young and naive, and what could i possibly know? >> this is on the phone, right? >> this is all on the phone, exactly. so the first time that madam nhu called me, i wasn't expecting her to call. i'd been writing her letters for months, i had been -- you know, i had knocked oner door that day, i had done everything except for see her, and she called me out of the blue. so she dictated very early on the terms of our relationship; when she would call, who she would leave messages with, how i should address her. very specific things. and, in fact, in that first convers