a certain kind of woman drinker and you know, this is not a book about drinking per se, but cat marnell's book. and she wrote a wonderful, wonderful book about being an absolute mess and not in like a hot, fun way. like i didn't read her book and thing, oh, my god-- i did think she's cool because she's so much cooler than me, but i also was just like, wow, i relate to this and i haven't related to many addiction memoirs because they do tell kind of a story that takes an arc and then everything is okay. and my story is like arc after arc after arc after arc. >> i think, this is just an aside that's popping into my head as i think about especially good or well-known books about drinking and women, including some of the people like tara or carolyn knapp and one thing that's unusual about your book, you stay with it at every step. often what happens with drinking books-- >> are you calling it relentless? >> i'm calling it relentless. let's jump ahead to the relentless question. the book, not only do you stay with it, you stay with it in theme. you don't start to generallylize -- generalize wh