my name is martin herman and germany we need to talk. on nervous rather swim under a sheet of ice climb into the ring or go climbing without a rope. shall i tell you a few more things that i'd rather do. but it doesn't it's time to be serious. when i'm smart and my name is martin hellman and i suffer from heavy depression i always start suppressing myself my questions my emotions hiding everything that makes me mean it's probably better just to function before i start looking for excitement to find a balance i think everything is a great idea alcohol drugs driving with my eyes closed for more and more time i put my health at risk sex fights destruction. like 6 years ago when my depression was so bad that i didn't know what to do. so i tried to end my life as vital as the publishers of my life why didn't i talk there's a simple reason why i didn't talk to people don't talk about mental problems i learned that early on at school or at the club at home always friends. but now i'm talking about i'm not going to stop talking can you image me