. >> sheriff, having found exhibit 36 in matt binder? -- have you found exhibit 36 in that binder? >> almost. yes. >> commissioners, i would like to read the statement the share of made as a party admission. then i will proceed in asking questions about it. this is exhibit 36, page four, line 18 through page 5, line one. it begins with the defendant as the speaker. the words are, thank you, your honor. i want to be back with my family. i want this to end. i would like to offer my