but all of this negative mythology had been built up and no one had ever, including the mcfeely. i have never read the mcfeely biography of grant because it's so that i don't want to read it because. and my grandfather wrote his own biography of his grandfather. his grandfather dedicated to his three daughters, including my mother, saying, need to set the record straight. most of it has been false from up until this point. and that's in 1969. so so that's why i grew up with that and that's why i don't think he knew how to talk to me. plus, i also think there were things that my grandfather was not a perfect person either and i won't go into that. but he had the prejudices of his time and i don't think he knew how. talk about any of that to a 12 year old, which is what i was when he died. but so i think that's but something you said about the first lady's my first entree into u.s. grant history is reading her memoirs, which are published in the 1970s at the behest of my mother and her sisters, because she didn't want published in her lifetime, because she didn't well, probably bec