at the fdny ambulance depot in queens, i catch up with paramedic megan pfeiffer. lp people a little more, and we see that we're helping them and improve them. but it's just been, like i said, one person after the next after the next after the next. a lotta people dying that we're seeing, and it's really hard to deal with. karishma: yeah, how are you dealing with this mentally? have y noticed changes in yourself? megan: absolutely, there's a lotta ups and downs. there are some days i go home, and i am just so depressed and upset. i'm hysterical, crying. i've had anxiety attacks, and then people then--we try to talk to each other and kinda really lean on each other. fdny being a family has really been more so than ever, 'cause that's kinda the only support we have. it's a lot easier to talk to a co-worker. they are offering counseling. i haven't really gotten around to it quite yet 'cause we're still in the thick of it, so i think it hasn't fully hit. i'm sure once things settle down it's gonna hit a lot harder and probably will need to talk to somebody. ♪♪♪ male rad

megan pfeiffer: there's been a lot of deceased people, a lotta people just waiting to die.

megan pfeiffer: there's been a lot of deceased people, a lotta people just waiting to die.