. >> the first chapter of you might lead up, first chapter of this book, megan riker, which is journalismis about suffering anyway say, how would you write a chapter in journalism book about such a thing like that but because i think that there is a lot of trauma that occurred in my life and the lives of the people that work for me and whether you being a whistleblower and violating a nondisclosure agreement and fired from your job. i was arrested in 2010, by the fbi financially exonerated from of the accused me of were rated by the fbi insi a member's were federal agents taking journalist work product rifling through anonymous sources in order tofl find out you committed a crime these are traumatizing things that she cannot asian about what it means to be journalist and what it means to be an american and you live through that he falsely accused in acute accused in the most powerful people pharmaceutical companies federal government coming after you and i don't know if i can do this anymore, and talk about that in book but then you begin to realize there's a lot of people out there who b