i have great empathy for my players now, the young people who we just sign to a 12-year, $125 milliondeal. you're not really prepared for what notoriety and what a big paycheck will bring to you. what i found is that i lost my way a little bit and then i got on the wrong airplane, and the airplane developed all sorts of mechanical difficulties. we prepared for a crash landing. that is the big pivotal moment of my life. first you always read about people dying with a smile on their face. around the plane, no one was smiling -- weeping, crying or praying. i had a high level of faith but i started to negotiate. i literally said, it will be a good year if you let me live. i promise that if i get a second chance, i will leave more than i take, and i will try to be additive, i would not just be a taker. that following weekend, i sat down and said, i've got this do over, i got the second chance, what do i do? i did not have any tools available to me and i had this big pivot in my life. so i ended up making this list of 101 things to do before i died. it has helped me envision a lot of the twists