yeah for me i mean there there is certainly the aspect of the merlin operation mirlande point that i whistle blow against but there is also as you said the racial issues that i was facing at the cia while i was there and trying to and finking that i'm raising in the ranks in handling my career i didn't realize in that you know i did realize that i was not receiving the same treatment as other officers not the same opportunities the same tools to do my job i asked my supervisors why and they point blank told me the cia having no compunction in saying what is tony what's on its mind told me that i kind of stood out as a big black guy speaking farsi. i mean that was a shock to me as an organization that i had established myself as a good a very good clandestine case officer but as i tried to move up in my career they didn't notice the color of my skin and that's when i my response to that was when when did you notice i was black and why does it matter. i took the step to fight against that discrimination because i had had enough that was not me i wasn't going to stand by and be treated