de mita and i think that is the left, i'm sure that is the left. so they come to the site and just seeing great things and all of a sudden they give each of their members and disappear but they didn't know why recorded everything and i know who were these people. >> [inaudible] [laughter] >> did anybody go from the left? >> i am sure there are many of them. [laughter] but i am trying to be modest. [laughter] is there a question, do you want to come to the microphone? >> i read your book and i cried the whole night when i read it with my family. and i have a very serious question probably people didn't ask about, as you lost your brother and i lost my brother and two cousins what did you do with your anger and how did you overcome all of this? just last night i broke down while talking to my older brother regarding the the life we lost in iraq so i'm trying to see how you cope with that pain and you put it here but i want to hear it from you. >> first i have to thank you and let other people know who you are. this is one of my dearest friends and we