the founder of a service organization serving l.g.b.t., and molly hatcher is the director of youth services. when did you start to think that may be who you were outwardly, legally was not who you were up here? >> for me, the thought started coming about the age of 16. i wasn't fully able to express myself due to living in my father's house, and my father was typically not a very caring man but certain issues in his household - you couldn't be gay or show a sign of femininity because that was a weakness, so i wasn't allowed to become who i wanted to be. after being thrown out of my home. i was able to start to become the woman that i'm supposed to be, that by the grace of god me being alive because i did have to do things to take care of myself. and i am where i am now. >> were there steps, were there sort of threshold moments where you didn't just think well maybe i'm not like other men. but maybe i'm not man at all? >> i remember i was different by society's standards of a regular homosexual male. the fact that - i felt i was one of the girls, i wanted to do what a lot of females did, and