>> i was getting jetted off to monoco, sailing around the coast of italy. i dated celebrities. i was on the cover of mag. it was a -- magazine. it was a dream come true. it came with a very high price. there was a dark side to the modeling business. there's tons of parties. ... cocaine to ecstasy. i was completely out of control with my eating disorder. i i was binging/purging 10 times a day. i got down to below 90 pounds. you could see all of my bones. my hair was falling out. i would vomit blood, yet i was getting the best bookings of my career. there was constant pressure to sleep with half of the people in the industry, and told it was a casting call, however when i got there, i wound up drugged and ... i was raped. ? ? >> i was pregnant. my agency suggested that i get an a, aborttion. i had the abortion, then they dropped me from the contract. ? >> 4 years ago i got a call she was so drunk, urinating all over herself, she decided to get in the car and she drove and got into a car accident. it was .... the worst moment of my life! but, it woke me up. and i realized that, if