mr. botelho. it was very emotional. my family, my supporters, and for me to go back to that space and talk about it and have them hear, "okay, he killed someone." >> i ask forgiveness for anthony from myself because if i had been the mother that i should have been to my son, none of us would be here today. my son never saw me actually do drugs, but.. >> at the time, my mother was getting high, so i didn't have no relationship with her. >> he would get into fights because his friends would call me names like crackhead. >> my father sold drugs. i learned negativity from him. i had anger, man, it was just all anger, all anger. that's it. i didn't think about nothing else that was going on. i didn't think about the victims' family. i didn't care. >> he was my only son. and i'll never forgive him. ever, ever, ever. i will never forgive him. >> i heard his mother's anger. i felt they pain. >> bobby was my only son, my only child. >> when they were speaking, i was on the other side and i just put my head down. i was ashamed th