mr. mcnamee ever told me -- mr. mcnamee never told me about mr. pettit using hgh. every time something came up, a conversation with jim merry, brian mcnamee said, i am trying to warn you, but do not tell roger. i have no idea. all i am telling you is that andy pettitte thought that i'd had usedhgh. -- i had used hgh. our relationship was such that -- >> i understand that. i am trying d.c. where to strike the balance. -- i am trying to find where to strike the balance. i am trying to figure out which side to believe. i have to tell you, one of the most interesting things -- and mr. mcnamee said it and it has been borne out in the depositions -- is that, when mcnamee gave testimony about notbloc and pettitte, those allegations bore out to be true. for some reason, your guy, who you admire, who you think is one of the greatest guys and honest guys and everybody says he is a religious guy when it comes to you, it is a whole other thing. do you see what i'm saying? you say that mr. mcnamee lied about you, but he did not lie about the other two. how do you explain that? >