mr. whittaker has known really well, i've turned fullerton upside down and helped rebuild it on policies and procedures. so the trial is not the only thing that we've needed to get done here. but all these other changes so this doesn't happen to somebody else. and you know i need to thank mr. whittaker for all he's done to help support that as well. >> you are a father who at the end of this has lost a son, a son who was sick for a long period of time. >> i'm really having difficulty understanding you this evening. >> i just wanted -- >> can you just ask that again? >> i wanted to note here that you are a father who lost a son, a son who had been very sick. it must be heartbreaking for you to revisit that video, those images of your son's final days. >> absolutely. kelly and i had a great relationship. for the longest time i was a single parent to him. we did a lot together and through his sickness i worked with him for about 15 years in and out of board and cares, medications, we would go places and do things. perhaps that was the reason he cried out for me, to help him, he cried out 32