mrs. gandhi was assassinated one terrible morning. i'd had a letter for her three weeks before her assassination. and there had been an attempt on me and my cabinet. she wrote such a charming letter saying it's absolutely terrible these things would happen in democracy. three weeks later, she herself had been assassinated. then, of course, her son came and i knew him well. he was assassinated in an election campaign. i just feel a special bond with that family. they did wonderful things for india. and mrs. gandhi really cared about every single thing she did. she was such a charming woman. she was also a very effective prime minister. >> you mentioned brighton, 1984, and the bomb. what happened? >> what happened was that thursday night i'm always up very late because my main speech, the end of the conference, the big rally speech is on a friday. you can't turn up with a speech without being carefully drafted before you arrive. but the thing changes, the atmosphere changes. some of the issues perhaps take a different turn. and you alwa