actually, myrna, we had orders to england. i called her back in the statements and said i've got a chance to fly another hundred missions. and she said, well, you've got to do that. and this goes back to the lieutenant wanting to stay in it and why young men are so untrustworthy when it comes to the prosecution of conflict. you need a much longer lens and a few gray hairs, i think. but you do thrust your young men and now young women into the maw, and they go there for this conflicting series of reasons. i was a first lieutenant to upgrade in the f-4 in the air force. i was very proud of that, and i flew swing seats, front seat and backseat in the f-4 in that first tour and then had the prospect of more to come. so on the 1st of june, 1966, i left the state. in december of '65 i had a three month old baby, and they went to ground on the south side of chicago. that girl was 7 and a half when i walked back through the door. and she's more like me today. and the daughter we had after the war is more like her mother, so go figure