one of the main characters here was the chief mechanic namedded doug browne, and he was the guy i became pretty close to, and he was in the engine room when the engine exploded. a steel door knocked him down. he had head injuries, and, you know, his legs were screwed up, and he also -- this is the hardest part. it's hard to tell. he had brain injuries so there's some behavioral change that could occur with that, but he clearly has ptsd. he could fix anything. he loved his job, his engines, and i talked to him recently, and his wife was there and said, you know, he's standing in front of the garage just in front of the refrigerator just trying to put a screw into where it needs to be, and his hand is shaking so bad. he can't do that. he's not working anymore. his full pay has run out. he's living on 60% of his salary because he worked three weeks on and three weeks off. his wife never had to develop a career. there's parties to suits, but those take years to play out. in the beginning when i was saying it's easy for the rest of us to go on and sort of forget about this, but when it's in y