i looked at it, and our wonderful writer, nancy miller, it did 88 of those. she did one a week. i loved that show. i reluctantly had to go, and it shut the showdown, but i had to take care of my kids. he is in college now, doing very well. tavis: obviously don't have regrets about that. he made the right decision for your child and your family. how do you emotionally process walking away from something that you love, knowing that you are walking away is going to shut down the project? how did you come to that decision? >> it was hard. but all i had to do was to look at his beautiful face and know that i needed to do what i needed to do with that. i thought, i can pick up my career later, but i really cannot blow this. i cannot blow what this kid needs, because they cannot be picked back up. tavis: clearly made the right decision, but you cannot always pick your career back up. i know people who have taken a break and try to come back, and they cannot get arrested in this town. >> well, that is exactly what happened to me, now that you mention it. i had had such a breezy career,