i used to follow somebody named naomi davis, i don't know if anybody remembers her, she had a blog on upper west side of new york, the posts were bright, vibrant colors and she performed a fun type of motherhood, a joyful type of motherhood that i at that time was failing to find within myself. and i do think many of us glom onto momfluencers who we perceive to be succeeding in ways that we perceive ours selves to be failing and again, i think that's a symptom of the cultural pressures we put on mothers specifically. yeah, as long as there is any notion of an ideal way to be as a mother, i think momfluencers and the nom momfluencer-- >> there's moms searching out content that makes them feel bad about themselves? what's that about? >> you could call it masochism. i think also, it comes from a sense of hope, like you know, i know for myself, i was consuming that kind of looking for a way to embody motherhood that made me feel better. like, you know, maybe if i buy the products she recommends for flying with toddlers, i will be checking some sort of good mom box, and i'll be able to sle