and nasima said to me, you know what? stop crying now because there is nothing you can do to change this. there are about 145 people in that prison. it's concrete. it's filthy. oh, it was disgusting, really. the bugs, the cockroaches. sometimes you even see a rat running around. it is just so unhygienic, i don't know how people survive in that place. it's horrible. the heroin addicts are terrible in that place. they walk in there like skeletons. and sometimes i used to sit there and say, you know, god, i'm glad that i got caught because i would never want to be responsible for something like this. this is what i brought to this country. this is what i do. i've seen girls crawl on all fours looking for their syringe. and they are hallucinating. and their eyes are the scariest thing about them because they say the eyes are the windows to the soul. when you look into these people's eyes, it's all hollow underneath. i used to think that they are soulless. that they've killed their souls. i had been awaiting trial for a year a