but i have to tell you, that hawthorne wrote a story called wakefield, nathaniel hawthorne.t's about an englishman in the 18th century in london says goodbye to his wife one day and leaves. and doesn't come back for 20 years. he has taken place about a block away. and during that story, hovland says that the reader meditate on that insanity. so i said, all right, i will do that. so this story is mike loss on the hawthorne story. what was your question? >> well, the question was, it was a total escape. it was a total escape and i know that's not what you are right about in your novel. i don't know what your novel is about. but i knew that was a great departure. and so i'm sitting here giving myself time off for good behavior, but also thinking that maybe it's time to be read what i have got because i start having anxiety about pacing, about the ships and point of view, things that maybe are better left for the end of the novel when i'm finished? >> ladies and gentlemen, you heard the voice of a writer. the troubles, the difficulties, the hazards, the misery, the torment. just