to meet one of those holy men sometime you say what am i doing here it's like they the national geographic explorer waiting to catch the monkey emerging from the forest and stay for three days on the drain waiting so sometimes you do have this say why am i here you know why am i trying so hard to see something with to witness something or twelve the world to know something so yes i did have that but i never read that whatever i was researching or exploring be purposeless or meaningless these are my know it so what's like one of the. mind blowing things memories i mean you've said it always true but some more vivid and important and deep than others from all this incredible people that you met studied with one of the most iraq listed that i've witnessed in my life has been my that there i said. she was a very old woman when i met her just a couple of years before she passed and. at the time i was really looking forward to this super supernatural lady tating kind of people and you know really key mazes and this kind of stuff doesn't exist really people levitate just yes or no. do people levitate like