sadly, my father died in the pub bombings with his friend, neil "tommy" marsh, when he walked past theit's a different feeling for me, because i didn't experience all that pain, the pain and the anguish that a lot of people did. my mother did, my mother's never got over it. you know, she doesn't talk about it a lot, she finds it quite difficult. ian got me into one of the first ambulances that got there, but because he was standing and walking, they didn't take him. so he said, after i'd gone, he went back into the pub to see if he could see stan, where stan was. and he said it was just a pile of rubble where stan was standing, so we think that's where the bomb was. so the first bomb went off at the mulberry bush - at 8.17, six minutes later. it was simply impossible j to evacuate in that time. there was a sort of rumbly—type sound... ..which i now know was the mulberry bush bomb. we sort of looked up, as you do, and thought, "what was that?" i suppose we carried on chatting. and then, sort of everything stopped. everything went black. there isn't a sound when you're that close to a bo