but tareq filed for divorce after michaele publicized her relationship with neil schon, guitarist for neil are with us this morning. just a little bit of drama in your life these days. >> a lot happened. >> do you want to tell me what happened? tareq was here in september and he said you left the house, were gone for hours. turned out you were leaving him and you were found out to have a relationship with neil. >> right. >> what was going on? why did you leave? >> natalie, i left that day not with plans to be gone forever. but after i did it had gotten -- our relationship was very controlled by tareq. anyone that watched the show or even spent 24 hours with tareq and i knew where i had come from and what i had been through. that day -- neil and i had been friends since the '90s. and i wanted to be with someone that would help me sort through what had been happening in my head. i didn't return because it just wasn't -- i couldn't endure any more. >> you all had been friends for a long time going back to the '90s. he considered you and the band friends as well. >> i considered him -- >>