you had to deal with your feelings, you husband, nick tomlin, who was killed, in the yum kippur war,your marriage and it's tough to write about that? yes. but i saw, i learned something from it. i saw that first of all, probably i shouldn't have married him. we were great friends and lovers and we had fun together but we were not really soul mates. and every time he ran off with a blonde and i was left with the children it had a good effect on me, because i thought, i've got to cope, i've got make my life, i've got to get a betterjob. and if you look at my life, when i came to look, i saw that each time he did something really dreadful, i grew and progressed so that most sadly, i mean it was terrible when he was killed, but i had in a way been prepared to cope. and in dealing with your own feelings at the time, in the 50s when you were a student through the 60s the tumultuos 70s, fleet street, the literary world, it must be difficult to write about friends and friendships with real honesty? well, i think my friendships with terry kilmartin who, was literary editor of the observer, wh