and so there was an episode where another an ap photographer on your niedringhaus was shot by an afghan police officer. we turned weapon on him and kathy gannon, who survived the incident. and david was there with me and we just sat at the house that afternoon and i can't quite repeat the language we were using, but we were just asking ourselves, what, what are we doing? is this story worth our lives? and questioning, you know, lots of sort of life choices in that moment and trying to understand, you know, what do we do with this? and, you know, the feeling was our story might not necessarily be worth our life. we don't really want to think about it in that context. but these are important stories and he more so much more so i did because david was in first in 2001 he was with the first forces that went in. he that conflict first hand for 15 years and felt an obligation to the people the us troops that he embedded with and photographed and anyone else to keep that story and keep it alive. and i certainly felt that in the time i was there, interest was waning and it was a struggle to kee