>> i found out, hey nikki medio hunting with me this week and customer sure 3:00 a.m. right wrote browsed out of bed the hour-long drive to the b marsh, we get in the boat and we drive to the marsh in the dark for an hour. we pull into the marsh we get out her boots and was slopping throughar the mud, when you are 14 you like man this sucks. [applause] it is way too early. >> clearly got that from them for those who do not know i think it's when you areo beginning to be a reporter. you did some really hair-raising stuff. you were challenging life in your own right. you inherited that it seems to me in a different way. >> was he friendly? if i met him i would be scared, i'm not going to live, he is so macho. >> that's the thing. yes. he did not exude warmth. my mom more than made up for paid my mom is the heartbeat of the family, right? what i tried to reconcile and to reckon with is, i always knew that my dad was setting the expectation for us, for my brother night as we got older. and so as i'm writing about this i'm thinking about my relationship with my dad and my r