and every time i come back into the ntc, i'll wind up back in here. >> how am i living? it's like a zoo in here. they treat us like animals in here. you ain't got no freedom in here. you get told what to do. when to eat. how long you get to eat. you don't get to move out of this one spot unless you're going to the mess hall. it sucks. >> nine "u" on the count. you have to be very aggressive at times. sometimes it takes force, sometimes it doesn't. it is tough working with all men. a lot of men feel that women are inferior to them, so they don't have to listen to women, and that makes it a little tougher also. i haven't been on the job all that long to have anything really bad happen to me. since i've been on the job, everything has been basically -- they keep everything pretty tight. we have officers who have been here for like 15 and better years, they've seen a lot worse. because 15 years ago, supposedly it was really bad. >> msnbc first went inside one of the most haunting cell blocks at rikers in 1999. it's the cpsu, the central punitive segregation unit. this is whe