. >> just yesterday was discussed by omar u. hillier that? bear with me because we just learned about it yesterday. it pertains to us not being the sum total of our parts that each of our parts having their own things that inform us. i realize as i'm speaking this might be a moot question but there are new therapies for the example for people with crohn's disease and it changes us and i was curious what your relationshiis yourrelationship u feel that it has informed not just you of your self but informs your writing itself. >> of course it informs my view of myself. i think that is unavoidable. and it has shaped some of my writing but not all because i was writing before i became fact. but i think that you only know how to narrate the world how you know how to narrate the world. you can't segregate parts of your identity and say that doesn't inform everything i am how i write and how i see myself. it's all connected for me. >> you are my favorites so i just have to ask you -- >> go on. [laughter] i guess in regards to someone like you and i.,