coopers did a study of prisoners who had spent long time in solitary, he identified nightmares, palpations fear of empending nervous break down, paranoia aggressive fantasies, and impulse control problems. you were in -- >> yes. >> in solitary a long time, is that list sound familiar. >> i witnessed all of that. some of the things i went through myself particularly memory loss. i'm out here today but have a hard time remembering things that i have to write things down for myself. because in a matter of secondses i forgot what i was trying to think of. ptsd. i went with through my bout. i was very hypersensitive when i got out everything just drew out so many emotions in me that i would lose control of my emotions i would dry a lot, loneliness, i would be in the room with a lot of people, but knowing they count understand what i was going through, i just felt alone. it doesn't do anything but break your hill to live. there are so many effects that sometimes it is scary out here. i have been out 3 1/2 years i am still working through the issues have. i can tell you it has been very scary. >>