. >> reporter: pam bosley knows the pain of losing a loved one to gun violence. her oldest son terrell would have turned 28 today. the last time they talked, guess where he was. >> he was at church. i was like, baby, be careful. he was like, ma, come on, you always worry, you always worry. i'm good. i'm good. i don't know why you're trippin'. ain't nothing going to happen to me. the next call was my baby had been shot. freshman, gunned down on his way to choir practice. terrell collapsed at the pastor's feet. the songs that once soothed pam's soul now only add to her suffering. >> i can't watch no more. that's my baby. i really don't watch the videos because he's supposed to still be here singing. >> reporter: pam's son just one of the thousands who have died here in the last ten years. chicago has one of the nation's highest murder rates. a city known to some as chi-rack because there are more deaths than casualties during the iraq war. pam and her husband built in backyard patio. >> this is the safe haven spot that i put together for terrell. >> reporter: it di